We are shadows thrown upon the wall.
We are images, what others see;
How we see ourselves, true-
Or what we think we perceive
Or what we want to be.
The Shadowlands by Edward Steinhardt
A year ago today Missy and I were out on the wiley windy moors getting some truly expansive photos. A year on that freedom and carefree spirit feels a ling way away. But to the anniversary of our adventure I asked Missy if she’d like to be my Scenes on Screens subject this week. Happily she was game!
I had in my mind a dark stark shadowy image and she certainly helped me achieve that. By chance her own post this week is some monochrome magic. Very different images to this time last year but as equally complementary.
I wanted do something a little bit different for the 500th Sinful Sunday and as this weekend is also the first weekend those of us in England are back in confinement it seemed the perfect time to kick off my next lockdown photography project.
Last time I took a nude self-portrait a day to stay connected to those I most enjoy being naked with. But after 122 of those photos I don’t have the will to restart that one so instead it’s time to breathe life into an idea I had during the first lockdown but never got off the ground. With so much of our lives during 2020 being lived through the screen I wanted to use that as a tool in my photography. In Scenes on Screens I will use the computer’s camera and my own camera to shoot nudes of people in their own homes. I also want to make my laptop part of the scene, acting as the frame for the image.
I am hugely excited that the first person I have collaborated with for this new project is the wonderful Confess Hannah. She was originally going to be one of the participants in my Sound of Music week during February Photofest (whiskers on kittens!) but her work trip to London was cancelled so that didn’t happen. I just happened to be pondering who to ask to be my first subject for this new project when Hannah tweeted that she was struggling for ideas for this weekend’s Sinful Sunday. A few DMs later and we had a Zoom photo date in the diary.
I am constantly amazed and delighted by how willing people in this community are to get on board with my occasionally (ok, often!) strange ideas. Hannah was no different, willingly moving her computer around the room and adjusting the lights until we had an image that just felt right. I absolutely love how this has come out. Hannah clearly looks fabulous, but I also love the shadows in this shot and there’s the delicious voyeurism of peering in on someone naked in their personal space.
Thank you Hannah for being my first collaborator in this new project. And thank you to Molly for running this fabulous meme which has done so much for my own body confidence and through which I’ve met some of my closest friends. Right, who wants to slip inside my screen next week?
Last week we marked the last Sunday of LoveLustLondon’s thirties and this week we mark the last Sunday of Monstrous Jaffa’s forties.
When we took this photo in August we commented how nice it would be to see this glorious green just as the days are getting short and dark. Little did we know then that when I posted this birthday shot we would have a week of solid rain and grey here in the UK and be facing another lockdown. How far away this weather and freedom feels at the moment.
Happy birthday Jaffa – guessing your half century is going to be a little bit subdued but hope you get an appropriate celebration in due course!
For rather obvious reasons I’ve called this Edit Us. This was a capture from the last moments of a wonderful evening with two amazing people.
Our plans had been in the pipeline for a couple of months and while we were all super-excited about it, I was ever so slightly nervous because I was introducing them for the first time. I knew they’d get on because they’re both brilliant people, but you never know how the chemistry is going to go. But I needn’t have worried because as you can see, we fitted together just fine.
The photo was taken by me and they’ve done an edit each. Which do you prefer?
I took this photo on 14th May, some two months into lockdown when there’d been a whooooole lot of time alone. I sent it to the recipients of my daily lockdown photos with the message ‘there’s one too many consonants between my legs right now!’
Tonight I’m putting the l back in to give a virtual high five to the wonderful Smutathon folk who are up against the clock, writing for 12 solid hours to raise funds for Endometriosis UK. Endometriosis is a chronic and debilitating condition that ruins lives. As Romantic Isa wrote in her story: “15 years of being told there’s nothing wrong with you while you’re in the worst pain possible damages a person.”
Despite Endometriosis being the second most common gynaecological condition in the UK, affecting one in 10 people AFAB, on average is takes 7.5 years to diagnose and there’s currently no known cure. Endometriosis UK is a charity achieving huge things with a tiny team and a small budget. With just seven staff and volunteers they supported over 25,000 people last year. Anything you can afford to give will go a long way. Please visit their fundraising page and donate now.
One of my favourite things about hanging out with a partner is not just the sex (although obviously that’s the best bit!), it’s the downtime between fucking. Idle chat, kissing and stroking with no immediate intent, bacon sandwiches in bed. It’s in those moments that I’ll often grab my camera to capture a moment. This was one of those moments – him stood in profile against my dark wall, drinking tea, not immediately realising I was taking a photo.
The photos from my day out with Honey and Monstrous Jaffa keep on coming. This time it’s me!
“Be like the sun and the meadow, which are not the least concerned about the coming winter.” George Bernard Shaw
August has been such a tonic. Hanging out with family and friends has felt like taking huge gasping breaths of air after too long under water. When we are hunkered down for what is likely to be a long and difficult winter I’m going to look at photos like this and remember these summer days of fun and freedom.
I was very happy on Wednesday to have a photo adventure with Honey and Jaffa. We got a whole load of photos but I think this is my favourite. Jaffa and I first talked about doing photos months ago and we wanted to get them in before he leaves his forties in a few months time. I wasn’t sure if these plans had had a 2020 done on them but happily I was able to get in on the #JaffasJollies fun and here we are!